“Gu-who? Guru with a Bronzed Hue”
The truth is, I came here with more knowledge than I could understand. Many times it made me sad because I was misunderstood. Most times, I felt like I knew things noone else did. And so, I just went on through life studying all kinds of things. Laboriously, I have sat over computers and phones taking notes and helping people who would never return the favor. I have assisted so many people in getting the very things they needed to improve their own lives and those of their families. And when it was my turn to ask for help from some of them - especially the repeat offenders - the favors were not repaid. I don’t lament over it anymore, though. I now understand that this is the life of a guru. I learn, I teach. Simple. And while I was earning a master’s degree over a decade ago, in Education and learning how to guide and teach adults, I never imagined that this is what I was practicing for. The ultimate classroom. My certification in Community Engagement and years in non profit did not lead me to believe that I’d ever…
It’s important to note that people have called me a guru for years. Wanna know how to land a job or get a raise? They’d call me. Wanna know how to get a man? They’d call me? Wanna know how to do enough tricks to keep people in awe, they still call me. Wanna cook a dish that seals you as THE perfect host, they call me. Got a dream you’re having and want perspective? They’d called me. Struggling to find your next steps… me! You a CEO and wondering what move you should make in the organization? They called me for that too. I did it all for the love of helping people win. In fact, I was quite passionate about it!
The truth is, I came here with more knowledge than I could understand. Many times it made me sad because I was misunderstood. Most times, I felt like I knew things noone else did. And so, I just went on through life studying all kinds of things. Laboriously, I have sat over computers and phones taking notes and helping people who would never return the favor. I have assisted so many people in getting the very things they needed to improve their own lives and those of their families. And when it was my turn to ask for help from some of them - especially the repeat offenders - the favors were not repaid. I don’t lament over it anymore, though. I now understand that this is the life of a guru. I learn, I teach. Simple. And while I was earning a master’s degree over a decade ago, in Education and learning how to guide and teach adults, I never imagined that this is what I was practicing for. The ultimate classroom. My certification in Community Engagement and years in non profit did not lead me to believe that I’d ever be helping people along their spiritual paths. And yet, here I am. But all along, I was praying for people and willing them back to health. Then, I had to HEALTH myself. Physically, emotionally and spiritually.
In recent years, I’ve been fine tuning my natural gifts and shining up the talents I’ve earned and developed along the way. I’ve spent hours in nature talking to the trees and God. I’ve cried out to God for answers to riddles that plagued me as I detoxed myself from the sickening programming I had previously received and fortified my soul with new food. And yes, I mean that literally. All of it led me to this place of peace. Fasting, praying, saying the things He told me to say all led me to this moment in time. It led me to answering the call that I kept getting daily for over twenty years. I’m glad I finally stopped sending it to voicemail and with shaky fingers, accepted the message to be who He’d call me to be. Fully. Without inhibition.
The path was as clear as manure in a pasture of isolation. Every turn has been without Google and Siri. Just straight up F-A-I-T-H. Something I’ve always been radical about. This time, it required that I go it alone. Without the comforts of Cadillac Care and an IT guy to load me up with virus protection. It was spiritual warfare AND watching my own back. Sadness and sheer joy. Loneliness and the most safety I’ve felt in life. When He said go back to the basics, I complied. Little to no makeup, no more wine tours, no more “friends”. No one to really bounce ideas off of. No one I knew had been where he was taking me - He made that clear. I had to become a spiritual guru. I had to learn to lead myself - which meant I had to learn on the job.
I must’ve been led to pray or “ministered” to a hundred people in public over many months. I spent (still do) hours studying the things they said were demonic in order to exorcise my own demons and be able to spot them when they were in the world walking freely. Why? He could’ve just told me - but He didn’t. And then, I started getting downloads by the bucket load. “Do this”. “Tell them this”. “Address that.” And since I ain’t never been scared… I did it all. Many times, with tears in my eyes.
I messed around and tapped into something old. I found something true. Not a God I’d ever seen before. It was something much more beautiful… I found God IN me. Who I was truly intended to be. A healer. A guide. Cut down the wall and bring everyone to the road to Damascus that Paul found. The crossroad. And that’s whether they got there through Hecate or Abraham. I was just supposed to tear down the faulty structure and let people find God in his fullness. The bounty of the earth. The spoken words. The living truth. No frills. No dignified worship. Organic reverence with I AM.
As I step boldly into what I am and have been all my life, I realize that someone greater will come after me. They will light the path with better kerosene. I heartily break down the walls of old dogma so that God may arise. Welcome to your new church. Your new healing. Your new forever. No robe. No Sunday School. No ushers. Just…
… a guru, some truth and you.
According to Merriam-Webster
Guru - a person that is generally recognized as a leader or teacher
Etymology
from gurū, a word in Hindi (the major language in India) meaning "Hindu teacher or spiritual guide," derived from Sanskrit guru (adjective) "worthy of respect"
